I can't believe that October is already over and done with. The days and weeks are just going by so fast this year and we're only two months off from a whole new year that I'm definitely not ready for yet. I've had a lot of ups and downs over the past one so I'm not sure if the next one is something to look forward to or something to dread. I guess it really doesn't matter since its coming no matter how I feel about it.
I guess I am glad that October is done since its been such and odd one. Generally its one of my favorite months in the year because it embodies everything that is FALL. But while the leaves were turning and I was doing my best to finish my Halloween costume in time, things were not going well with my mom health wise. Over the past 4 weeks she's be hospitalized 3 times for various "ailments" yet not a single doctor can figure out the underlying cause. I'm not going to get into details about what is going on with her because frankly she's a very private person and I know she wouldn't want me to post anything about it on here, but at the same time she has me and my brother and sisters very worried and in a bad position if something very serious is going on. As of Thursday she is back out of the hospital but still with no known reason why she's been having such trouble. I know she has a litany of specialist referrals from her docs and I'm really hoping she follows through so we can get some concrete information finally. Maybe with the start of the new month things will turn around.
She asked me to come home for Christmas and I'm torn about what to do. In some ways I of course want to go home and spend time with her, but at the same time traveling that time of year in this neck of the woods is a hardship. The roads are horrible and flights are constantly cancelled and delayed. Plus I've started making my own Christmas traditions with Mace. I'm seriously thinking about telling her that I'm going to put off a visit until at least spring when the weather is better. But then I'm worried about her health and I never ever ever want to miss an opportunity to be with my family when possible or when there is threat of any kind of problems. So I'm sure you can see my dilemma. But I'll figure it out one way or another.
I keep looking at my schedule from now until the end of the year and I don't honestly know how I'm going to squeeze everything in. The school has the holiday bizzare, the fall concert, the scholastic book fair, ski trips, and who knows what all else packed in over the next 3 weeks before Thanksgiving and I've somehow managed to volunteer myself to help out with a bunch of these activities on top of normal work hours, and my involvement in the after school program. I may have bitten off a bit more than I can chew. Oh and I'm trying to get as many pictures as possible for the yearbook (which again I committed to). Its no wonder that by 10 pm I'm crashed out. After Thanksgiving we have even more projects, concerts, and activities to pack in before Christmas and for the first time ever I'm not ahead on my Christmas shopping for my family and I'm really not sure when I'm going to be able to do it. I always like to get it done before the snow starts flying so that if I need to go to Missoula or Spokane to shop I get it done before the roads get bad. I guess whatever I plan on doing I'll have to make it online shopping and pay those ridiculous shipping prices. Oh well. If you have any gift giving ideas I'm certainly open to suggestions. I keep trying to think of some cool scrapbooking idea that I could make each of my family members and send them but I'm coming up pretty blank.
So I guess that's whats going on with me right now. I know this was a bit of a spastic post but that's just how my brain is working right now. Hopefully next time it will be a bit better. Hope everyone's holiday preparations are going well. Love to you all.